Sal Mineo (1939-1976)

today is his 70th birthday.

altho he was older than me I considerd Mineo a contemporary. his performance is "Rebel Without a Cause" guarantees him a place in film history. but as the years go by his name seems less & less important.

I only saw him once. it was in a summer stock production of Calder Willingham's "End as a Man" which Mineo also directd. I remember it as powerful. not the kind of play one generally saw in stock.

it's been many years since I saw the film "Exodus" which many consider contains his finest on screen work. but I have seen the quirky "Who Killed Teddy Bear" in which he's remarkably sexy.

I took the photo below of the garage in which he was murderd. it figures in the opening poem of my new book of Hollywood pieces.

"we have begun our descent"

a new zine Ekleksographia features in its inaugural issue a poem which I keep reading & rereading.

"The Dense Marine" comes to me via Melville & Metcalf but is an original work. its author William Allegrezza writes on his blog that it may be "a draft of a longer work." it will be fascinating to see if he takes it further. but as it stands it's rich. it involves me as few new poems do.

new plant stand

literature's most famous hay(na)ku

to be or
not to
be

hard times

my men's dinner group met last nite at one of our favorite restaurants. the place was nearly empty. & the owners had the thermostat set so low I was chilld thruout the meal.

a reminder

from Stephen Bottum that we just passd Marsden Hartley's birthday.

what strikes me hard abt this favorite painter is that he died the year I was born & at the age that I become this year.

I
haven't shaved
yet this year

dreams live
in my pillow
they seep thru
into my skull

one nite
I dreamt
of puce snow

next morning
I threw
my pillow
away

Edmund Purdom (1924-2009)

this was a favorite film of my boyhood.

in one of the poems from my new Hollywood book there's this passage abt Grauman's Chinese Theater:

Edmund Purdom put palms to cement
but one nite his square was dug up
gone
          like his pictures in the tabloids

& so the year of change begins

news that 2 places from my past are closing.

Carousel Dinner Theater began in Ravenna & moved to Akron. over the years I saw Mickey Rooney & Van Johnson & Cyd Charisse & Smothers Brothers & Robert Morse & Sheila Smith & McGuire Sisters at that venue.

Galisteo Inn is a lovely b & b abt a half hour from Santa Fe. I stayd there in 1993 & after moving west returnd for some tasty meals in its restaurant.

"dream on new year's day"

my 1st publication of 2009

2008

hail
& farewell
my rotten annum

the way she was

that's how I'll remember Barbra Streisand. she was one of the most original performers of my generation. but watching her being honord at Kennedy Center was sad. & not just because she was sharing that balcony with President Worst Ever.

in clips we saw how great she was when she was young. I can still remember when I first saw her on obscure tv shows. then on Broadway in "Funny Girl." & those early tv specials. but can you remember the last time she matterd?

go ahead. take my gay card away. but what I found most moving on this year's Kennedy Center Honors was the tribute to The Who.

Savage Canticles

1
how many times
has yr intention
been toward here
but a detour
took you there

how many detours
have brought change
to the narratives
that become history

2
unwritten code
bludgeons pigeons
in that park
where squatters
squat

a nurse
shoots up
forsaking
footlight glamour

3
portfolio of malice
spiders into
every century
sans invitation
or strategy

lost pastry chef
discovers
physique model
trimming roses

4
dance in Manhattan
or die in Winnipeg
yr life cradles
crackers
broken by bandits

archive
each crumb
in redwood
coffins

Ann Savage (1921-2008)

in the bustle

of a week with houseguests & more activity than usually comes my way I pause for a moment to note I'm touchd by the kind words from Tom Beckett on his blog.

I do find the internet helps me keep in touch with friends old & new much better than in incunabular times.

Eartha Kitt (1927-2008)

Harold Pinter (1930-2008)

chicken paprikas

with her husband sick in bed for 36 hours Regina took to cooking.

socko

don't walk
run
to see
the new
Anita O'Day doc

they're on their way

& I'm almost ready.

houseguests

hopefully Regina & John will arrive here by noon after a harrowing travel day & unexpectd overnite in Dallas.

my office doubles as guestroom. so for the next week I won't have normal access to the computer. I'll post as able.

ho ho o noooooooooooo

Regina just calld from Boston. she & her husband are stuck on their plane & will probably miss a Dallas connection.

remember Kenneth Starr?

that skatole is now a dean at ultraconservative Pepperdine. but he still finds time to defend Blackwater. & now Prop 8 supporters have hired him to help nullify all same-sex marriages in California.

wdn't surprise me to learn he goes to Rick Warren's church.

a kick in the balls

I wd never have guessd the honeymoon wd be so short.

Obama's disastrous choice of Rick Warren to participate in the inauguration saddens me.

the presence of such a divisive person on the podium ruins what shd be an historic day.

today's

Betty Grable's birthday.

& the movie I watchd tonite featurd a video store which had a large cutout of Betty Grable in her famous pose.

broken lock

another item from my everyday life must be laid to rest.

for at least the past decade I've employd Uncle John's copper lock at the gym. it was his during his work life at US Steel in Lorain during the century just past. I've enjoyd its feel & look. but I discoverd it no longer locks. rather than fix it I think it's time to take up residencey in the antiques drawer. with thievery rampant in lockerrooms it's probably past time for its retirement.

& that clown keychain? I'm not at all into clowns but my parents brought that back from their only trip to Las Vegas. they stayd at Circus Circus which I see when I stay at Blue Moon.

mo flo

for Bill       for Roman

flokati in the snow

Regina sent me this

I'm presuming it was taken in early jan of 1975 because I'm reading Gerald Mast's The Comic Mind. I met Gerald in late dec of 1974 in NYC & visitd Regina in Boston right after.

I never had a copy of this. it's always an odd feeling to "discover" an image of yrself that you don't know. esp when it's such an old image.

back in town

Jessica Lange lived in Santa Fe some 20 years ago. she returnd for a signing of her new book as a photographer. she's a warm & genuine person.

greetings of the season

my friend Bob in Fort Worth used one of my photographs on his xmas card this year.

Van Johnson (1916-2008)

I took these at Shrine Auditorium in 1987. above Johnson is cavorting with Arlene Dahl & unknown men. below he's fondling Treat Williams.

emotionally this

has been a turbulent year for me.

yesterday the kitchen was my attack point in this housecleaning project. & it turnd out to be overwhelming. altho I always am aware of what's there & their particular histories the act of holding items from the dead was stirring.

romertopf from Paul Metcalf
Aunt Mary's plate
pitcher made by Julia Waida
cookbooks from T. R. Queen & David Meredith
even errant Melina hairs

but the object I found most moving was something my father made.



it was the cold-air return for the hallway of my house in Kent. it's such a competent piece of craftsmanship that I brought it west with me. it sits on top of kitchen cabinets as a free-standing sculpture. but as I held it on my lap dusting each section with an old toothbrush I was brought nearly to tears. it's not simply that it's a lovely piece of work but it was done by my father for me. & to me it's a demonstration of love. Dad & I had some tense moments in our relationship. both stubborn men with strong opinions. but holding that object that he made for me I knew he loved me as much as I loved him.

Bettie Page (1923-2008)

on Santa's lap

one of the reasons "A Christmas Story" is probably my favorite holiday movie is because it opens with a view of Higbee's in Cleveland in what's supposd to be the late '40s. that was the store & the period in which this photo was taken of me:

the thief in me

I have 2 cedar chests. Mom's is full of my publications & under this long white table I use as a computer desk. the other was Julia Waida's & contains linens & other cloth items. it's in my great room   a divider between livingroom space & that of the dining area.

as part of my housecleaning I'm moving things around & changing "stuff." I wantd to trade cloths under the teak tray that holds marbles. the brown plaid one from Mom was to be put away while I pickd something fresh. of course the chest wdn't open. it has a lock which somehow lockd itself for the 1st time ever. & I have no key.

after 5 minutes of cursing (I'm still pissd off that a mini-crash of my computer resultd in my no longer being able to save cookies)I realizd I must put all those movies I've seen to work. so I thot for a moment. I went to a kitchen drawer & producd an ice pick. with cunning & guile & hopefully some grace as well I manipulatd that tool till the chest sprung open.

now I have a new Greek cloth to put under the teak tray & a sudden feeling of suavity.

instead of giving xmas gifts this year

I've decid'd to buy myself the Senate seat in Illinois.

R.I. P. Polaroid

this is the last month Polaroid film is being made. who of my generation doesn't have fond memories of this process. I only have a handful of such photos -- including my earliest nude -- but always enjoyd making them.

the last time I posed for a set of Polaroids was 5 years ago when R. B. Sprague took this:

this is not a Christo

the cathedral downtown is undergoing some nip/tuck.

must see

the festival's documentary award went to "No Subtitles Necessary: Laszlo & Vilmos." it's essential viewing for anyone interestd in the history of cinema.

festival awards ceremony

Giancarlo Esposito


Joan Allen


James Cromwell

from before memory

yesterday I went thru a box of old photos & came across this. I believe it's the 1st photo ever taken of me. I suspect I'm abt 2 months old. I'm in the arms of my godmother   the late Sophie Hause.

Santa Fe Film Festival

one of the greatest cinematographers of all time Vilmos Zsigmond was at today's screening of "Torn from the Flag"   a powerful documentary abt the Hungarian Revolution. it includes footage he & the late Laszlo Kovacs
shot while they were still in film school.

one last look

Phillip Caudillo sent me this picture from Thxgiving. we're on our way to what used to be calld Short Sands Beach.

some men smell
like bruisd limes

others
like dark tarn

more Oregon

back from the coast

Thxgiving at Rockaway Beach with a couple of Broadway veterans: Garold Gardner ("Most Happy Fella" & "Camelot")     Kenneth Carr ("No No Nanette" & "Seesaw").


Ken positions the Century Dimes at Lewis & Clark's saltworks.


on the beach

off to Oregon

for the bird & camaraderie...

10 turkeys

(excerpts from Alex in Movieland)

1956
celebrates Thxgiving in Elyria with turkey with his parents     paternal grandparents     Sophie & Jim Hause     Ann & Harold Nolan & cousin Robert     followd by watching Evelyn Rudie play Eloise on “Playhouse 90”

1975
fixes Thxgiving dinner in Twin Lakes for his parents
throws "leftovers" party next day with guests including Hazel Janicki & William Schock

1978
feasts on Thxgiving dinner at Manhattan home of Peter Burnell & Gerald Mast

1979
sees "The Life of Brian" with David Meredith in Pittsburgh on Thxgiving before joining Jon Carpenter for dinner at a terrible Chinese restaurant

1981
shares Thxgiving lunch at Gumbo Shop in New Orleans with Ira Joel Haber

1988
celebrates Thxgiving with his parents & Dimitri at Julia Waida's in Kent

1997
watches Alice Ripley on Macy's Thxgiving Parade broadcast with his parents in Elyria before arrival of Sal & Frank Kovach     Sophie & Jim Hause for turkey dinner

1998
observes Thxgiving in Santa Fe with a toast at Bernique Longley's followd by buffet at Arlene Stone's

2001
enjoys Thxgiving dinner at Two Bunch Palms in Desert Hot Springs with Bill Berger

2002
wears his Judy Henske t-shirt to walk on Short Sands Beach on Oregon coast with Garold Gardner on Thxgiving
reminisces abt T. R. Queen with Lloyd Pauze while the turkey roasts

Ladd as Gatsby

stretchd out by
the pool

indelible

o nooooooooooooooooooo

I've just discoverd there's a blog calld "Alex in Movieland." that   of course   is the name of my epic masterwork.

the blogger is 22 y/o. since I've been working on my piece for a dozen years I guess I'm safe.

new old quilt

yesterday UPS deliverd a large package from Ohio. Mom was getting a jump on the holidaze. there were many treasures but the centerpiece was this quilt:



I'm not conversant with the history & patterns of quilts but Mom told me this was an example of Ohio Star.

Robert Drivas (1938-1986)

hard to believe that Bobby wd turn 70 today.

his career was primarily in the theater -- as both actor & director. however he had at least one great moment on film:



at the beginning of "The Illustrated Man" he walks naked into water. this was almost 40 years ago -- before every young actor was dropping trou on screen. it was one of those appearances that burnd into the psyche of gay men of my generation.

Bobby was a beautiful man   a complicated man   a dangerous man. I'll remember him forever.

lunchtime looms

fixing linguine with clam sauce
while doing laundry

an addition

Roger gave me this cutting from an enormous plant of his.

before JK asks for equal time for Richard Harrison here's equal time for Richard Harrison

because this vintage portrait from Harrison's early modeling career turnd out so small   allow me to guide you to this fascinating multi-lingual doc on his career.

Harrison   BTW   has just been honord at the Damascus Film Festival.

speaking of Leigh Snowden

Steve Tills snappd me with this "Hot Rod Rumble" poster at Quaker Square in Akron 4 years ago.

thx to Richard Lopez

from his blog:

i can draw no parallels in the arts of dining and the arts of living and poetics. tho there probably is since we only have this one life and mine is centered on family, poetry and well, i don't know, every obsession i own, which again somehow relates to poetry. for example, i was re-reading alex gildzen's book it's all a movie yesterday where alex in a poem cites leigh snowden then i see that kiss me deadly is scheduled for broadcast on turner classic movies. or that in another poem richard harrison makes an appearance while the night before last i watched a bit of challenge of the tiger which is the flick paired on the dvd with for your height only. and that is only a partial grazing of connections with alex's book and my own obsessions in movies of late.

my book of faces

pages fade
faces disappear

a nation of men
gone

coast to coast
Clay Chancellor
in Manhattan
to
Gerald Vukas
in Beverly Hills

names
in another book
but
faces fled

found on Facebook

"Patrick has no friends."

nite of mares

horrid wickd dreams

& then I woke to Melina's ceramic bowl in shards on the back portal.

googling

my friend Roger   I found this photo.



Jen Waller took it 13 months ago at R.B.'s opening in Seattle & postd it on Flickr. altho we're all rather dark   that's me on the left chatting with Roger & Michael McCafferty.

& in another example of synchronicity

my local tv station reminds me this ayem that today is the anniversary of the 1st American printing of Melville's novel.

I wish

Paul Metcalf & Howard Vincent were alive for many reasons. but I certainly wd like to know their reactions to the news that Moby Dick is Barack Obama's favorite book.

a Quillan moment from 1934

ruminations

blame Tom Beckett. his recent blog entry abt mortality depositd gravel in my loafers. after all I'm a decade older than Tom. & these past few years have seen my wall of the dead get higher & higher.

I'm certain the reflective moments in yesterday's posts were spun from Tom's wool. the only good thing abt aging is an acuity of vision. I see things differently. the mistakes of youth are so clear now. & the importance -- or lack thereof -- of events & objects seems simple.

so at the gym this morning my outward grunts were matchd by inner cogitation abt Tom Beckett & Eddie Quillan & Djuna Barnes & how they all collide with Gildzen. I got to thinking abt this whole writing thing. I began writing when I was 10 or 11. I began publishing when I was in my teens. it's a big bibliography. but is any of it important. there are no monographs abt my work. no movie abt my life. it remains a struggle to publish some of my books. one of my late poems that I think is pretty good -- "there are men" -- causd a stranger to write me that it was a masturbatory reflection of an old queen. perhaps the years of no notice are better than that kind of reception.

I don't know where this is going so maybe I shd conclude before I fill the blogosphere with more bromides. I guess I want to tell Tom that every time I lay me down to sleep I don't expect to wake up. & when I do it's a joy. on the precipice of old age I'd rather see a movie than read any kind of criticism. I prefer a kiss to an award. & I'll keep on writing becasue that's what I do.

when I was

in the Village a week or so ago I walkd past Patchin Place. of course I had to stop to gaze in at the apartment of Djuna Barnes. I haven't read her in some time. at this stage of my life I can look back & wonder if I was more enamourd of her life or her writing. she certainly was one of the great characters of American literature.



I don't hear much abt Barnes anymore. so it was a delight to learn that one of her short plays (written 82 years ago) is being revivd. "The Dove" is one of 8 plays that Theatre Rhinoceros of San Francisco is currently presenting as part of "100 Years of Queer Theater."

I have existd in several landscapes

one of the richest for me is Hollywood. I walk the streets whenever I'm able. & when I'm unable I walk the streets in their replication on screen.

the 1st movie I remember seeing is "The Wizard of Oz." many years after that initial screening I was there to hear Judy Garland sing "Over the Rainbow." I was there to see Margaret Hamilton on stage. I was there to walk the backlot of MGM where that cast had walkd. I ate in the Culver City hotel where the Munchkins lived. I walkd among the surviving Munchkins just last year. that movie & its endless ripples are as much a part of my life as any person or event.

I used to worry abt writing so much abt Hollywood. abt movies. abt "stars" so few now remember. but I remember & that's what I want to write abt. so I can put Eddie Quillan on a street corner. I can make Virginia Grey a cigaret girl in a posh nite club. I can declare Howard Wendell a moment. I live in the movies. & as I age I'm no less a fan than that boy who awkwardly offerd his autograph book to Denise Darcel in front of the Capitol Theater on Broad St in Elyria.

I'll stop writing abt Hollywood when they put dimes on my eyes.

just for Jack

actually I spent a good deal of time last nite searching for the right photo of Scott Brady to post. I never found one "hot" enuf to match my long-ago lust for him.

(& I just now remember that Brady had a shower cameo here a few years ago.)

one of the joys

of the DVD glut is the availability of rare &/or forgotten material.

last nite I watchd one of my fave '50s hunks Scott Brady in 4 episodes of "Shotgun Slade." this modest western series featurd the brawny actor with a slew of fascinating guest stars & a boisterous score by Gerald Fried. 2 of the guests were of particular note to me. Donald Murphy   who like Fried calld Santa Fe home   was perhaps more model than actor but had some enjoyable screen time. William Roerick was primarily a stage actor. over the years I saw him several times   inc as leading man to such greats as Judith Anderson & Carolyn Jones. it was lovely to see them both in their primes. & of course great to see Brady. he was never a major star but had a long career in which he workd with pantheon directors. I saw him once -- the only time I went to the Oscars. he'd become a beefy character actor by then but the boy in me still did a quick swoon in memory of who we both had been.

35
bathrooms in
the White House

in my dreams

Paul Metcalf. last nite.

& then I rememberd that fri was his birthday.

Obama bread

I resistd. but neighbor Rita insistd.

she gave me starter for a bread which she'd been given. apparently it's some sort of pass-it-on event which supposdly began at the Vatican. my disdain for religions was reason enuf to not take it. but my lack of skill at baking was another.

I was instructd to put the starter in a glass bowl. I used an outsize brandy snifter which once held M&Ms. I coverd it & waitd till I was instructd to stir with a wooden spoon. all of this was taking place during the election.

on the phone last nite Mom told me I must follow the complex & never-ending instructions completely or the bread wdn't work. this morning I lost patience & emptied the snifter several days before schedule.

the first bread is just out of my toaster oven & quite tasty. I didn't put in the ingredients I didn't have & add'd cranberries. I'm making a second loaf now which I'll give to Rita.

election withdrawal

so of course I just watchd Obama's press conf.

more seminar

with Bill Coco & Jean-Claude


Ron Faber


with Ruth Maleczech


Jake Robards

my panel

Judith Malina   Mark Hall Amitin   Jean-Claude van Itallie   Barbara Vann   me   Randy Gener

flashback

Regina sent me her NYC photos.


in front of Joyce Theater
w/ Ira Joel Haber




at Morgan Library
w/ Henry Van Dyke
(& the Century Dimes)

too excitd

to sleep last nite.

Barack the President

can't stand

the wait.

so I'm going to the movies.

I didn't vote

early because I love the experience of standing in line to vote.

so you can imagine my chagrin when I arr'd at my polling place 45 minutes after it opend & found no line. zero. zip. nada. I felt so sad being deprivd of that to which I'd been so looking forward. I was the 27th person in my precinct to vote. I know there was a record early vote in Santa Fe but it still was disappointing not to be able to stand with my neighbors in this historic election.

& now that long nerve-wracking wait till the results. I take nothing for grantd so I'm worried.

Yma Sumac (1922-2008)