off to Oregon

for the bird & camaraderie...

10 turkeys

(excerpts from Alex in Movieland)

1956
celebrates Thxgiving in Elyria with turkey with his parents     paternal grandparents     Sophie & Jim Hause     Ann & Harold Nolan & cousin Robert     followd by watching Evelyn Rudie play Eloise on “Playhouse 90”

1975
fixes Thxgiving dinner in Twin Lakes for his parents
throws "leftovers" party next day with guests including Hazel Janicki & William Schock

1978
feasts on Thxgiving dinner at Manhattan home of Peter Burnell & Gerald Mast

1979
sees "The Life of Brian" with David Meredith in Pittsburgh on Thxgiving before joining Jon Carpenter for dinner at a terrible Chinese restaurant

1981
shares Thxgiving lunch at Gumbo Shop in New Orleans with Ira Joel Haber

1988
celebrates Thxgiving with his parents & Dimitri at Julia Waida's in Kent

1997
watches Alice Ripley on Macy's Thxgiving Parade broadcast with his parents in Elyria before arrival of Sal & Frank Kovach     Sophie & Jim Hause for turkey dinner

1998
observes Thxgiving in Santa Fe with a toast at Bernique Longley's followd by buffet at Arlene Stone's

2001
enjoys Thxgiving dinner at Two Bunch Palms in Desert Hot Springs with Bill Berger

2002
wears his Judy Henske t-shirt to walk on Short Sands Beach on Oregon coast with Garold Gardner on Thxgiving
reminisces abt T. R. Queen with Lloyd Pauze while the turkey roasts

Ladd as Gatsby

stretchd out by
the pool

indelible

o nooooooooooooooooooo

I've just discoverd there's a blog calld "Alex in Movieland." that   of course   is the name of my epic masterwork.

the blogger is 22 y/o. since I've been working on my piece for a dozen years I guess I'm safe.

new old quilt

yesterday UPS deliverd a large package from Ohio. Mom was getting a jump on the holidaze. there were many treasures but the centerpiece was this quilt:



I'm not conversant with the history & patterns of quilts but Mom told me this was an example of Ohio Star.

Robert Drivas (1938-1986)

hard to believe that Bobby wd turn 70 today.

his career was primarily in the theater -- as both actor & director. however he had at least one great moment on film:



at the beginning of "The Illustrated Man" he walks naked into water. this was almost 40 years ago -- before every young actor was dropping trou on screen. it was one of those appearances that burnd into the psyche of gay men of my generation.

Bobby was a beautiful man   a complicated man   a dangerous man. I'll remember him forever.

lunchtime looms

fixing linguine with clam sauce
while doing laundry

an addition

Roger gave me this cutting from an enormous plant of his.

before JK asks for equal time for Richard Harrison here's equal time for Richard Harrison

because this vintage portrait from Harrison's early modeling career turnd out so small   allow me to guide you to this fascinating multi-lingual doc on his career.

Harrison   BTW   has just been honord at the Damascus Film Festival.

speaking of Leigh Snowden

Steve Tills snappd me with this "Hot Rod Rumble" poster at Quaker Square in Akron 4 years ago.

thx to Richard Lopez

from his blog:

i can draw no parallels in the arts of dining and the arts of living and poetics. tho there probably is since we only have this one life and mine is centered on family, poetry and well, i don't know, every obsession i own, which again somehow relates to poetry. for example, i was re-reading alex gildzen's book it's all a movie yesterday where alex in a poem cites leigh snowden then i see that kiss me deadly is scheduled for broadcast on turner classic movies. or that in another poem richard harrison makes an appearance while the night before last i watched a bit of challenge of the tiger which is the flick paired on the dvd with for your height only. and that is only a partial grazing of connections with alex's book and my own obsessions in movies of late.

my book of faces

pages fade
faces disappear

a nation of men
gone

coast to coast
Clay Chancellor
in Manhattan
to
Gerald Vukas
in Beverly Hills

names
in another book
but
faces fled

found on Facebook

"Patrick has no friends."

nite of mares

horrid wickd dreams

& then I woke to Melina's ceramic bowl in shards on the back portal.

googling

my friend Roger   I found this photo.



Jen Waller took it 13 months ago at R.B.'s opening in Seattle & postd it on Flickr. altho we're all rather dark   that's me on the left chatting with Roger & Michael McCafferty.

& in another example of synchronicity

my local tv station reminds me this ayem that today is the anniversary of the 1st American printing of Melville's novel.

I wish

Paul Metcalf & Howard Vincent were alive for many reasons. but I certainly wd like to know their reactions to the news that Moby Dick is Barack Obama's favorite book.

a Quillan moment from 1934

ruminations

blame Tom Beckett. his recent blog entry abt mortality depositd gravel in my loafers. after all I'm a decade older than Tom. & these past few years have seen my wall of the dead get higher & higher.

I'm certain the reflective moments in yesterday's posts were spun from Tom's wool. the only good thing abt aging is an acuity of vision. I see things differently. the mistakes of youth are so clear now. & the importance -- or lack thereof -- of events & objects seems simple.

so at the gym this morning my outward grunts were matchd by inner cogitation abt Tom Beckett & Eddie Quillan & Djuna Barnes & how they all collide with Gildzen. I got to thinking abt this whole writing thing. I began writing when I was 10 or 11. I began publishing when I was in my teens. it's a big bibliography. but is any of it important. there are no monographs abt my work. no movie abt my life. it remains a struggle to publish some of my books. one of my late poems that I think is pretty good -- "there are men" -- causd a stranger to write me that it was a masturbatory reflection of an old queen. perhaps the years of no notice are better than that kind of reception.

I don't know where this is going so maybe I shd conclude before I fill the blogosphere with more bromides. I guess I want to tell Tom that every time I lay me down to sleep I don't expect to wake up. & when I do it's a joy. on the precipice of old age I'd rather see a movie than read any kind of criticism. I prefer a kiss to an award. & I'll keep on writing becasue that's what I do.

when I was

in the Village a week or so ago I walkd past Patchin Place. of course I had to stop to gaze in at the apartment of Djuna Barnes. I haven't read her in some time. at this stage of my life I can look back & wonder if I was more enamourd of her life or her writing. she certainly was one of the great characters of American literature.



I don't hear much abt Barnes anymore. so it was a delight to learn that one of her short plays (written 82 years ago) is being revivd. "The Dove" is one of 8 plays that Theatre Rhinoceros of San Francisco is currently presenting as part of "100 Years of Queer Theater."

I have existd in several landscapes

one of the richest for me is Hollywood. I walk the streets whenever I'm able. & when I'm unable I walk the streets in their replication on screen.

the 1st movie I remember seeing is "The Wizard of Oz." many years after that initial screening I was there to hear Judy Garland sing "Over the Rainbow." I was there to see Margaret Hamilton on stage. I was there to walk the backlot of MGM where that cast had walkd. I ate in the Culver City hotel where the Munchkins lived. I walkd among the surviving Munchkins just last year. that movie & its endless ripples are as much a part of my life as any person or event.

I used to worry abt writing so much abt Hollywood. abt movies. abt "stars" so few now remember. but I remember & that's what I want to write abt. so I can put Eddie Quillan on a street corner. I can make Virginia Grey a cigaret girl in a posh nite club. I can declare Howard Wendell a moment. I live in the movies. & as I age I'm no less a fan than that boy who awkwardly offerd his autograph book to Denise Darcel in front of the Capitol Theater on Broad St in Elyria.

I'll stop writing abt Hollywood when they put dimes on my eyes.

just for Jack

actually I spent a good deal of time last nite searching for the right photo of Scott Brady to post. I never found one "hot" enuf to match my long-ago lust for him.

(& I just now remember that Brady had a shower cameo here a few years ago.)

one of the joys

of the DVD glut is the availability of rare &/or forgotten material.

last nite I watchd one of my fave '50s hunks Scott Brady in 4 episodes of "Shotgun Slade." this modest western series featurd the brawny actor with a slew of fascinating guest stars & a boisterous score by Gerald Fried. 2 of the guests were of particular note to me. Donald Murphy   who like Fried calld Santa Fe home   was perhaps more model than actor but had some enjoyable screen time. William Roerick was primarily a stage actor. over the years I saw him several times   inc as leading man to such greats as Judith Anderson & Carolyn Jones. it was lovely to see them both in their primes. & of course great to see Brady. he was never a major star but had a long career in which he workd with pantheon directors. I saw him once -- the only time I went to the Oscars. he'd become a beefy character actor by then but the boy in me still did a quick swoon in memory of who we both had been.

35
bathrooms in
the White House

in my dreams

Paul Metcalf. last nite.

& then I rememberd that fri was his birthday.

Obama bread

I resistd. but neighbor Rita insistd.

she gave me starter for a bread which she'd been given. apparently it's some sort of pass-it-on event which supposdly began at the Vatican. my disdain for religions was reason enuf to not take it. but my lack of skill at baking was another.

I was instructd to put the starter in a glass bowl. I used an outsize brandy snifter which once held M&Ms. I coverd it & waitd till I was instructd to stir with a wooden spoon. all of this was taking place during the election.

on the phone last nite Mom told me I must follow the complex & never-ending instructions completely or the bread wdn't work. this morning I lost patience & emptied the snifter several days before schedule.

the first bread is just out of my toaster oven & quite tasty. I didn't put in the ingredients I didn't have & add'd cranberries. I'm making a second loaf now which I'll give to Rita.

election withdrawal

so of course I just watchd Obama's press conf.

more seminar

with Bill Coco & Jean-Claude


Ron Faber


with Ruth Maleczech


Jake Robards

my panel

Judith Malina   Mark Hall Amitin   Jean-Claude van Itallie   Barbara Vann   me   Randy Gener

flashback

Regina sent me her NYC photos.


in front of Joyce Theater
w/ Ira Joel Haber




at Morgan Library
w/ Henry Van Dyke
(& the Century Dimes)

too excitd

to sleep last nite.

Barack the President

can't stand

the wait.

so I'm going to the movies.

I didn't vote

early because I love the experience of standing in line to vote.

so you can imagine my chagrin when I arr'd at my polling place 45 minutes after it opend & found no line. zero. zip. nada. I felt so sad being deprivd of that to which I'd been so looking forward. I was the 27th person in my precinct to vote. I know there was a record early vote in Santa Fe but it still was disappointing not to be able to stand with my neighbors in this historic election.

& now that long nerve-wracking wait till the results. I take nothing for grantd so I'm worried.

Yma Sumac (1922-2008)

seminar on Jean-Claude

I can only imagine how he felt. it was such an outpouring of love. Ron Rand -- who runs The Soul of the American Actor & tours as Harold Clurman in a one-man show -- put the event together at CUNY. there were readings from Jean-Claude's major plays. the best were given by Ruth Maleczech as "Bag Lady" & Ron Faber as the hunter in "The Hunter & the Bird." later in the day a stellar cast was assembld for readings from his adaptations of Chekhov: Laila Robins   Roger Rees   Angelica Torn   Brian Murray   & the super-hot Jake Robards.

here Jean-Claude himself reads from "Light" with Rosemary Quinn:



there were also several panels. none of us got to talk much but it was important to me that I was part of this event. I've known Jean-Claude for 40 years & really wantd to participate in this tribute.

Regina was my documentarian for this event but she hasn't been able to forward her photos to me. I took very few. this one at the closing reception is of Jean-Claude with the legendary Judith Malina & her new assistant Brad Burgess (who has mesmerizing eyes):

politix

LA mayor Antonio Villaraigosa was in town



to rally for Tom Udall



who is running for the US Senate.

day of the dead

observd Halloween last nite with a Vincent Price film. then this ayem I walkd to his daughter's garage sale. one fetching item was an Alex Katz print for $4500. not my mother's kind of garage sale.