02 May 2016

changes

with only 9 more days till the move I just arranged to have my landline disconnectd after 22 years with this number. I don't get many calls (except nuisance ones from charities & people in India trying to sell me things). but if you have my number you can cross it out in yr address book. whoops. I'm showing my age. you can delete it from yr online directory.

29 April 2016

art lifts the spirit

a tiring day. on phone much too much. reserving storage space in Palm Springs. shutting down services here. more packing. & the weather nasty. cold with moments of rain & even snow. but I cleand up & took the bus to town. Wes Hempel was here for his opening. & I wantd to hello Wes & Jack Balas.



it was my second viewing of the show. & of course I saw new things. as much as I admire the large paintings the smaller pieces on paper thrill me in a whole different way. I'm excitd by the craft of painting that small. but there's also an intimacy in seeing work of that size. & for a writer there's the additional layer of meaning that comes with the image sharing space with printd words.

so my difficult day resolvd itself as it so often does. painting or film or poetry or music takes me out of the doldrums to that sweet place.

25 April 2016

thank you

to family & friends for making this such a sweet birthday. I truly felt special.


photo by Jim Cory





nothing like a birthday

to reflect on a life. today I turn 73.  holy shit.  when did that happen?

this birthday is like none other.  my first without Mom. her death 21 days ago was seismic. each one of those days I've wantd to call her. at 94 she remaind intellectually curious. almost every call wd include her commenting on the news. right till the end her morning paper was more important to her than coffee. but perhaps in a tie with bacon.

couple that major event with my selling my dream house where I've spent my last 22 years.  in 2 weeks I move to Palm Springs. what's left of my "stuff" (I've been downsizing for a year) will go into storage till I find a condo. & then I start over.

I can't predict -- nor wd I want to know -- what the future holds. this is simply a rumination on where I am now. my last book -- Ohio Triangle -- was publishd one year ago today. it is one of my most important collections but has gone without a review. however I've been putting out little books for 45 years & I can put all my reviews in one hand. I simply keep on making poems because that's what a poet does. & in the past Palm Springs has been a stimulant for work.

one of my friends wishes romance for me. I tried relationships twice. both faild. I'm so comfortable living alone I doubt I cd handle compromise again.

so here I am. an orphan at 73 facing my final chapter. I've faught alcoholism & depression. but I've written a couple of poems that bounce off the sun. & I've made love with angels before they had wings. as long as a verb or a naked man excites me I'll go on with gusto.

tonite I'm having dinner with a poet visiting from the east. I don't know if there will be cake or candles. but I will fill with grins remembering all the cakes. & I will be illuminated by the parade of candles that have lit this long life.


23 April 2016

"Go for Baroque"

art fashion show



at David Richard Gallery

























with Dylan Anderson


photo by Frank X. Cordero



22 April 2016

some dolls

here I am in Sam Taylor's guest room with Mom's Madame Alexanders.



& here they were in their original home on Winckles St.


21 April 2016

a sign

a local consignment shop came to pick up the 1950s Coke machine my parents gave me years ago. when they left I saw something in the dust under which it had stood in my kitchen these past 22 years. I pickd it up. it was this fragment from an envelope:



I read that as her blessing for the move.

17 April 2016

my parents



this is one of my favorite photos of them because it's so spontaneous.  Mom was often self-conscious in front of a camera.  & Dad tended to pose.  but this is of them in the moment. & they're both happy & young.

I don't know who took this. or where or when it was taken. I think it may be a transfer from a slide.