Arroyo Chamisa

2012-02-14T09:51:00.003-07:00

working on a new film

2012-02-11T20:16:00.001-07:00

the cats in my life

2012-02-10T14:16:00.002-07:00

2012-02-09T00:48:00.000-07:00

it's James Dean's birthday

2012-02-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

in 1981 I threw a brunch to celebrate the actor's 50th birthday. on the front of the invitation was my poem "Autobiographical Fragment" & a drawing of Dean by Jim Provenzano. I had that front cover separately publishd in an edition of 20 which Jim & I signd & numberd.

Cesar Romero & Joel McCrea

2012-02-07T10:07:00.002-07:00

of all the pictures I've taken in Hollywood over the years this is one of my favorites

T. R. Queen

2012-02-06T13:44:00.004-07:00

hard to believe it's been 10 years since Tom died.

Twin Lakes: 1975

Las Vegas: 2002

"Gourm" (collages from 2000)

2012-02-05T12:36:00.001-07:00

Ben Gazzara (1930-2012)

2012-02-03T18:21:00.004-07:00

the original Brick

2012-02-03T10:12:00.001-07:00

out of the past

2012-02-02T07:47:00.001-07:00

going thru a box of old photographs I found this sketch of me. I'm guessing it was done early in my undergrad days at Kent State. however I'm having trouble remembering the artist. the signature appears to read "Jacquelin" but I can't decipher the last name. any of my classmates out there have better memories than mine?

2012-02-02T00:52:00.000-07:00

"Yvette Vickers' Bones"

2012-02-01T10:25:00.002-07:00

that was the title
of a haiku
I wrote in prison
in my dream

it was a women's prison
& I workd in the laundry

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2012-01-30T17:31:00.001-07:00

2012-01-29T11:44:00.001-07:00

2012-01-29T00:53:00.000-07:00

2012-01-28T13:23:00.001-07:00

yesterday

2012-01-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

I was brave. accomplishd a download of a program which converts DVDs to iMovie. so I spent the day editing little films.

the quality is weak. my You Tube offerings were made from a DVD made several years ago from a videotape made decades ago of a movie which may not exist. but because so much of this footage is so historic I'm sharing it anyway. in a way the graininess suggests just how old the scenes are.

so you'll be seeing more videos here than usual. I'm having a good time -- & remembering many friends no longer here. last nite I didn't sleep at all because my mind kept plotting my next production.

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2012-01-27T15:28:00.001-07:00

watching

2012-01-27T00:37:00.000-07:00

"Valley of the Dolls" I was struck by Paul Burke's unique position in the history of true crime in Hollywood. it's been written that early in his career he was a bartender at Florentine Gardens & knew Elizabeth Short. & in this fabled bad movie he appears opposite Sharon Tate. so he may be the only person to have known both of these famous victims.

whispers from the dead

2012-01-26T16:35:00.001-07:00

Elizabeth Short's fingerprints

Craig Arnold's footprint

Nicol Williamson (1938-2011)

2012-01-25T11:11:00.000-07:00

when I saw him in "Inadmissible Evidence" he was the prince of Broadway. & a colorful character -- having sluggd producer David Merrick during the tryout.

Williamson was in films for over 40 years playing roles as famous as Sherlock Holmes & Little John.

but when he died in Amsterdam last month he reportedly was broke. & his death is just being reveald now.

yet another example of how fleeting is fame.

Theo Angelopoulos (1935-2012)

2012-01-24T18:06:00.001-07:00

one of the biggest thrills I had attending the Toronto Film Festival in 2004 was to see this great

director introduce a screening of "The Weeping Meadow." how sad to learn he was killd by a motorcycle while crossing a street.

when you think you've seen everything

2012-01-24T10:39:00.002-07:00

dead modem

2012-01-23T10:55:00.000-07:00

that isn't the name of a new rock band. it was yesterday's situation.

so after the gym this ayem I purchasd a new one. after installing & configuring I feel like an honorary geek.

between Vine St & Columbia Studios

2012-01-22T00:16:00.000-07:00

tragic residents of 3 blocks in a row:

6263 Leland Way
showgirl Beryl Wallace who died with her companion Earl Carroll in a plane crash
(her home is now the popular restaurant Off Vine)

6238 DeLongpre
former flight attendant Hervey Medellin

6230 Afton Place
Marie Prevost

so this is Hollywood

layers of Hollywood history

2012-01-21T09:25:00.001-07:00

today is the 75th anniversary of the death of Marie Prevost.

a few years ago I made a call on my cell phone to filmmaker Todd Hughes in front of the Aftonian where Prevost died.

exactly one block over on DeLongpre is the apartment building of Hervey Medellin who last nite was reveald to be the person whose head was found near the Hollywood sign. & altho we don't yet know exactly when he was murderd it may have been on the anniversary of the finding of the body of Elizabeth Short.

Etta James (1938-2012)

2012-01-20T09:47:00.004-07:00

2012-01-19T00:07:00.000-07:00

I took this 5 years ago at the site on Norton Ave where Elizabeth Short's body was found. what startld me then was that the Hollywood sign was visible. it's difficult to see here but that white line in the mountains is the sign.

the Hollywood sign case

2012-01-18T21:30:00.000-07:00

the finding of a human head near the sign was certain to garner big news coverage. however the subsequent discovery of other body parts so close to the anniversary of the Black Dahlia case has all the makings of a major moment in the history of true crime in Tinsletown.

my madeleine

2012-01-18T13:24:00.000-07:00

since posting the Tom Mahl video I've been corresponding with some old classmates. the school in that video was Garford Elementary. from there I went to Eastern Heights Junior High. Bill Cooper (far right in bottom row) unearthd this picture. I wasn't a jock & rarely went to games but I remember most of these guys. & seeing some of these faces for the first time in years has unleashd memories heretofore lockd. I haven't studied the way memory works & don't know how individual it mite be. but for me often a photo can release something which locates the past in my head.

statistics

2012-01-17T00:31:00.000-07:00

on the old design for this blog there was something calld Sitemeter which allowd me to see the source of visits. with dynamic Blogger I can no longer put the Sitemeter banner on the site so that info is kept only for those few who still use the old view (which yesterday was one).

however I discoverd Blogger has its own tracking system. this one is quite different. & some of its "news" is strange. for instance I went from 593 pageviews one day to 207 yesterday.

Blogger also reveals that most my viewd post (with 1373 hits) is the one abt Gary Brockette. abt 500 hits behind is a picture I took of Ben Barnes. & coming in third a post abt former amour Robert Drivas. so much for poetry......

change

2012-01-16T00:56:00.000-07:00

since I now have a 27" LED screen on my new computer it seemd time to alter the old-fashiond look of this blog.

in the process I lost some links. however all that information remains available on my Facebook page. & to non FBers there's always a Google search.

change isn't always easy when one grows older but I've found it's necessary to a healthy life.

in remembrance

2012-01-15T10:52:00.000-07:00

& from my chapbook Beth

my first iMovie

2012-01-14T15:09:00.001-07:00

more HVD

2012-01-13T14:17:00.000-07:00

in my backyard on Morris Rd (with the lemon tree from my parents which I gave to Algesa & Joe O'Sickey when I went west)

the latest abt HVD is from Michael Henry Adams.

pop food

2012-01-13T09:53:00.000-07:00

years ago Lawrence Alloway named an art movement: pop art. let me apply that to food.

Xmas 2010 dinner at an upscale restaurant in the Venetian in Las Vegas. my side dish was mac & cheese. (I can see Bill Berger cringe.) but this mac & cheese had several quality cheeses & truffle shavings.

for the recent holidaze I was back in Vegas & while at chic hotel du jour the Artisan I tried their speciality a lobster BLT.

I love when chefs elevate the quotidian. just as pop art chose items from everyday life & made us look more closely at them this is being done in kitchens.

from the archives

2012-01-12T00:46:00.006-07:00

Ira Joel Haber sent me this photo he unearthd. he took it at his loft. our dinner companions are John Perreault & Marjorie Strider. my best guess as to the date: nov. '73.

Hamlet

2012-01-11T00:29:00.001-07:00

when I went thru my Henry Van Dyke files in preparation for sending them to my collection at Kent I found this snapshot. he took it at P. Craig Russell's 1981 Halloween party.

Denise Darcel (1925-2011)

2012-01-10T08:25:00.000-07:00

when I was 12 she came to the Capitol Theater in Elyria. the first movie star I ever saw was Gene Autry. but I was 5 then & have zero memory of that event. however I still remember asking La Darcel for her autograph in the book Aunt Sophie gave me for Xmas 2 months earlier. her sweetness to a kid forever left her in a place of affection in my life.

recent visitors

2012-01-09T16:52:00.003-07:00

Eunice Rose

Rick Castro

back online

2012-01-09T16:26:00.002-07:00

learning to apple

hiatus

2012-01-04T10:42:00.000-07:00

for the holidaze the ethers gave me the gift of spyware. so after a century of PCs I've orderd a Mac. won't get it for a week & not sure how strenuous the learning curve will be.

year's 1st dream

2012-01-01T07:14:00.002-07:00

I'm an artist
stepping into a boxing ring
to paint
2 naked bodies
with chocolate syrup

it's an HVD morning

2011-12-29T09:36:00.001-07:00

when a friend departs I always search files & scrapbooks for memories. here I am with Henry & poet Paul Zimmer on Morris Rd in 1983.

sometimes photos aren't particularly good but still hold so much information. I took this at what I calld my "family picnic" in 1984. what breaks my heart is that Henry is joind by 2 other dear dead friends Julia Waida & David Meredith.

an HVD memory

2011-12-29T00:13:00.000-07:00

Henry red pants Trues vodka-on-the rocks
and so much in love with his ladies

with Dietrich he sings in German

"what would the word glamour mean
without Dietrich?"

with Holiday he cries vodka tears

"in 1959 she was dying at Lenox Hill Hospital
and someone slipped in
and gave her heroin"

with Mercer he finally laughs

"she was an old fat lady when we met --
55 70 60 . . . . she asked me to jitterbug.
I said I couldn't dance then we jitterbugged"

dear drunk Henry falling in love again
and asking for his ladies

(from Dec. '70: Ohio)

& he in turn wrote abt he & I & the last of those ladies -- Mabel Mercer -- in his contribution to A Keepsake for Alex Gildzen Upon His Retirement from Kent State University (1994).

Henry Van Dyke (1928-2011)

2011-12-28T20:08:00.000-07:00

portrait by Carl Van Vechten

in my backyard on Morris Rd

with the Century Dimes at Morgan Library (2008)
last time I saw HVD
(photo by Regina Yando)

salute to Steinbeck

2011-12-28T14:33:00.000-07:00

Rt 66 Museum in Kingman

the day after Xmas

2011-12-28T10:20:00.000-07:00

Gary pickd me up at Blue Moon & we drove to Boulder City for breakfast at his favorite diner. then over the new bridge to Kingman -- where Lombard & Gable were married -- & on to Oatman -- site of their honeymoon.

Kingman has a mixd reputation. the good part is as a venerable stop on old Rt 66. the bad part is as home to gun crazies & militia wingnuts. the town's favorite son is oldtime character actor Andy Devine. the main street in town is named after him.

when I was a kid I was jealous of the old fella because he was sidekick to gorgeous Guy Madison on the "Wild Bill Hickok" series. his on-set chair is on display with other Devine artifacts at a local museum.

perhaps

2011-12-27T18:25:00.001-07:00

the strangest Xmas gift I've ever rec'd was one Gary gave me the other day -- a small piece of wreckage from the Carole Lombard plane crash.

Gary took me holding the piece in front of the hotel where Lombard & Gable had their honeymoon.

returnd

2011-12-27T15:04:00.000-07:00

from Las Vegas an hour ago. here I am in front of the Venetian's Xmas tree.

this was the second Xmas in a row my buddy Gary & I ate our holiday dinner at that resort. this time it was at Pinot Brasserie & the 4-course meal was sublime.

Xmas 1988

2011-12-25T00:45:00.002-07:00

on Morris rd. me -- age 45.

Xmas 1957

2011-12-24T00:09:00.001-07:00

on Winckles St. here's Dad -- age 39.

& look at that television set!

between storms

2011-12-21T15:08:00.002-07:00

&
my computer
is acting strangely

as grinchy as

2011-12-19T14:38:00.000-07:00

I attempt to be at this time of year I must say there is one thing I like abt the holidaze. being in touch with old friends.

today I got cards from a pair of special women. one I met in 1956 &nsbp; the other in 1961. & then an unexpectd package from an artist friend I've known since 1971.

any life has room for new friends but at this stage of my life it's amazing to know I still have some people who have been with me in the down times as well as the up ones.

whacky weather

2011-12-18T15:42:00.000-07:00

yesterday I wore my trench coat to town & froze my ass off. hardly a soul was on the plaza.

today I wore my heavy winter coat. so naturally it got into the mid 50s. the plaza was teeming with tee-shirtd tourists.

& tomorrow the forecast is a blizzard.

new chapbook

2011-12-17T06:06:00.000-07:00

the other day Bree sent out a call for poems for Green Panda broadsides & a possible anthology. I sent her 4 recent ones which she wrote back she liked.

to my complete shock she just postd this
.

so I unexpectdly have another little book to add to this wonderful publication year. as we reach its last days I want to thank Steve Tills & Mark Young & Diane Borsenik & Bree. you've all made me so happy by putting my writing out there. no matter how tough things get I kept writing & writing & writing. it means so much that somebody is reading.

tonite I watchd

2011-12-16T21:13:00.001-07:00

a little western calld "Untamed Frontier." it gave special billing "introducing" Suzan Ball. actually she'd already had bits in 2 other films.

seeing her for the first time in a while I recalld some years ago when Ira Joel Haber was visiting & I showd him the movie star scrapbooks I kept as a kid. under a picture of the Universal-International starlet I wrote "the late great Suzan Ball." Ira laughd at my youthful exuberance.

Ball -- a second cousin of the more famous Lucy -- isn't well rememberd today. she only made a handful of films before her death at age 21. I remember liking her a great deal. here's a photo she signd for me:

Ball had affairs with co-stars Scott Brady & Anthony Quinn before marrying Richard Long while fighting the cancer that killd her. none of her films were classics but she had a presence. seeing her again brought back many memories of my boyhood at the movies.

Timeline

2011-12-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

Facebook has given us a new feature which I'm loving. it isn't lost on me that this cd be a template for Alex in Movieland.

that work is a list -- but so much more than a list. I suspect many will use FB's Timeline similarly. for me it's a different project. but as I began playing with it yesterday I felt as if I were gathering illustrations for my masterwork.

Stan Kenton (1911-1979)

2011-12-15T07:33:00.000-07:00

I heard Kenton & his band but once: in 1957 at the Palace in Lorain.

for over 40 years I had a remarkable album -- Kenton & Tex Ritter. I gave that precious vinyl to Ned Sublette because his work reminded me of that classic.

2011-12-14T10:50:00.001-07:00

Kenneth Patchen (1911-1972)

2011-12-13T22:14:00.003-07:00

"Suspicion made the first pairapants; but, Joey, it'll be love'll take off the last."

death makes us remember

2011-12-13T09:25:00.001-07:00

my 1976 book Liszt & Other Lists opens with a piece calld "Eat." it's in 2 parts. the first is "lunch: Eddie's Stag Bar" & the 2nd is "dinner: Rusty Nail."

this morning I read the online obit of Don Bentley of Twin Lakes OH. in 1967 he bought Green Trees Inn from Therese Green & reopend it as the Rusty Nail. probably Portage County's premier steakhouse it occupied that wonderful old building until 1981 when Bentley sold it. he moved his establishment to an ugly modern structure behind the original & it remains in business. the old building housed one restaurant after another till it burnt down a few years ago.

my list of dinner partners at the original Rusty Nail includes
Jean-Claude van Itallie
Gregory Markopoulous
Gary Snyder
Richard Eberhart
Henry Van Dyke
Paul Metcalf
Gerald Mast
Kevin McCarthy
Jonathan Williams
Thomas Meyer

when I lived in Twin Lakes it was the closest good restaurant & a place where one always felt comfortable. & every nite Bentley was on premises being the perfect host.

reading his obit I discoverd an odd art historical connection. his sister married into the Helmling family. it was Richard Helmling who operatd the backhoe that buried the woodshed for Robert Smithson.

speaking of . . .

2011-12-12T00:31:00.001-07:00

in 1975 Mark Mothersbaugh (author of My Struggle) had a small shop in Akron's famous Quaker Square. the only time I went there I bought this rubberstamp print of his from him:

it's calld "Flying Fish Fight Bomber 3."

sharing the bill with DEVO

2011-12-11T00:37:00.001-07:00

found this picture of the 1977 poster on the internet. I have one somewhere in my "files."

so many

2011-12-10T07:02:00.002-07:00

intense dreams
all nite
I woke
exhaustd

uber Hollywood

2011-12-09T12:48:00.000-07:00

"Who is the Black Dahlia?" was a pedestrian telemovie from 1975 which begins & ends with inaccuracies abt the Elizabeth Short case. not much to reccommend it -- except for one quick scene.

Lucille Ball's daughter & Natalie Wood's sister under the direction of Mitzi Green's husband.

nothing spectacular abt the actual scene. but so many layers of Tinsletown lore.

out of the past

2011-12-08T00:05:00.001-07:00

this is the Cleveland of my high school years. not the best footage -- & silent -- but it includes the famous Sterling Lindner tree.

never been

2011-12-07T00:27:00.001-07:00

a fan of Mariah Carey & certainly can do without Xmas

but

I'm more than enjoying these videos:

zero

2011-12-06T06:16:00.001-07:00

that was the temp when I woke abt 5:45. then on tv I saw Rob Marciano lead the national weather news with how cold New Mexico is. our high today will be 16.

this is much too Ohio for me. not liking it at all.

2011-12-05T19:44:00.001-07:00

"Crunch"

2011-12-04T16:36:00.002-07:00

man
eating celery
on the bus

I don't like hot dogs but

2011-12-03T00:57:00.002-07:00

they've been on my mind a lot of late. it startd with the recent demolishing of the Thai Hot Dog Stand on the corner of Hollywood Blvd & Western. the place had closed by the time I startd staying down the street at the Coral Sands. I doubt I'd ever dine there but the giant hot dog on top of the building had become iconic.

then there's the current tv commercial for Pink's -- where I have eaten a couple of times. there is always a line & standing in that line is as much a part of the experience as its actual fare.

two other hotdoggeries are a part of LA history. Carney's is in a former railroad car. it's been on Sunset Blvd since 1975. I ate there once & that was enough.

then there's the legendary Tail o' the Pup. I first knew it on La Cienega & here I am with the famous structure in 1987 after it had moved to its final location on San Vicente.

apparently Tail o' the Pup is in storage waiting for another location while the hot dog from Hollywood & Western is on a building elsewhere.

how embarrassing

2011-12-02T17:45:00.000-07:00

to be a Republican.

not only do you have to keep a straight face during the clown show that is the fight for the party's presidential nod but now there's to be a debate featuring the birther with the bad hair as "moderator."

how happy can we be?

2011-11-30T19:33:00.001-07:00

on Facebook today Christina Brooks postd this picture she took of John Burroughs & I at our reading at Lorain Arts Council a couple of months ago

Nancy Metcalf (1921-2011)

2011-11-29T08:00:00.001-07:00

some may know of her as the wife of Paul Metcalf -- one of the most important American writers of the 20th century.

but I knew Nancy as a strong intelligent funny woman who always held her own in the household. yes she was the model of a writer's wife: loyal & supportive. but she knew who she was. I was lucky to have her as a friend.

when I visitd the Metcalfs at Wild Thymes I usually spent more time with Paul. Nancy always went to bed early. Paul & I wd then spend hours talking into the nite. but when Nancy & I had our time alone together there was never an awkward -- or quiet -- moment. it seems we were immediate friends. our conversations wd range from cooking to movies to things other worldy.

around the house are gifts from Nancy: an antique wooden bowl a Romertopf Warhol's cat book & from my last visit to her that beautiful rock which she gave me the moment I expressd my fascination with it.

Nancy Metcalf was one of the beautiful people in my life. I'll miss the way she'd suddenly break into a dance. that's what I see first when I think of her.

Ken Russell (1927-2011)

2011-11-28T08:58:00.002-07:00

I've heard it sd

2011-11-28T00:52:00.001-07:00

that nothing postd on the internet ever disappears.

in Spring 2003 August Highland did a special edition of his Muse Apprentice Guild on my career.

when that ezine died I presumd my issue did as well. but o no.... there's something calld Way Back Machine which archives the lost. & there I found this salute.

bike trail

2011-11-27T00:11:00.000-07:00

during the summer I reportd on some work the city was doing to an area where I walk regularly.

turns out the Arroyo Chamisa bike trail is getting a fashionable addition. & yesterday I walkd on the freshly asphaltd surface for the first time. here is that spot where I put the sign:

Tom Russell's in town

2011-11-26T17:02:00.000-07:00

on his Misabi tour

from another dream

2011-11-25T06:10:00.001-07:00

"In art
everything is connectd."

then an hour or so later --
from an Alice Ripley interview:

"How would they fit together?"

thx

2011-11-24T06:49:00.000-07:00

to my memory for putting Cynthia Mayer & T. R. Queen in my dream.

however as it progressd it developd a disturbing end-of-the-world theme.

"Marrying the Eiffel Tower"

2011-11-23T10:28:00.002-07:00

courtship brief
absinthe & brioche
but
honeymoon lasts
forever

Theodore Enslin (1925-2011)

2011-11-22T20:56:00.000-07:00

Voyage loneliness unfinished
therefore lonely? no way to
put it other than the chance
words of loneliness voyage
whatever the voyage may be
or wherever we looked
any of us
tending fires in the galleys
where we'd cook whatever food
would sustain us
through that loneliness.
A fire even to cook at sea
is hazardous business &nnsp; but
necessary and loneliness
yes.

2011-11-22T14:57:00.000-07:00

"... I found out that Hoover had a collection of photos of Clyde sleeping."

Armie Hammer
Out (dec/jan)

Bruce's shoes

2011-11-21T00:18:00.001-07:00

Holsapple

John Neville (1925-2011)

2011-11-20T17:51:00.000-07:00

best known for his stage work Neville had an on & off screen career. most will remember him as Baron Munchausen but to me he'll always be Lord Alfred Douglas.

"Bathtub Full of Newt"

2011-11-20T10:30:00.000-07:00

as he lowers
his mound of flab
water rises
spilling over tub
like
a cascade of diamonds
from Tiffany's

"Ribbon Candy in My Underwear"

2011-11-19T09:39:00.001-07:00

what fills dreams
fuels push
to make

1997 collage

2011-11-18T20:39:00.000-07:00

this collaboration with dear friends Bill Berger & David Meredith was done at the Andy Warhol Museum

snail mail

2011-11-17T12:11:00.002-07:00

don't receive much anymore

but

in the past week a dozen catalogs have arr'd

behind the curtain

2011-11-16T10:27:00.001-07:00

Hollywood is like Oz. the glitter is carefully orchestratd.

the other day we were passing Grauman's Chinese & I decided to have a look for the slab I saw Peter O'Toole do earlier in the year. as Billy & I were leaving I saw a pair of workmen at a side door:

being inquisitive I lookd closer:

these are the prints Mickey Rourke left not long ago. I'm not sure where they'd been & where they were going. only recently I found out that stars do practice slabs inside before coming out before the cameras for the final product. so perhaps that's what these are.

in the toilet

2011-11-15T12:03:00.001-07:00

Billy & I celebratd 11/11/11 by lunching at Micheli's. then we went across the street to meet photographer Rick Castro. his Antebellum Gallery was having its 6th anniversary.

the current exhibition is of the work of Tom of Finland & includes a rare drawing he did of James Dean.

while there I was able to visit the gallery's infamous Tony Ward Toilet:

a true friend

2011-11-15T06:22:00.000-07:00

I spent my splendid weekend at the estate of Bill Berger who I've known for more than 40 years. (that's his backyard in the photo of me being filmd.)

I took this photo of Bill beside the David Hockney pool at Hollywood Roosevelt.

at The Abbey

2011-11-15T00:03:00.001-07:00

back from LA

2011-11-14T17:42:00.002-07:00

where I was interviewd by Do & Erik Brouwer for a Dutch documentary abt silent screen star Jetta Goudal.

I read my poem "Femme Fatale" (from my book It's All a Movie). the doc will be releasd next year in conjunction with Erik's bio of the exotic actress.

in my day

2011-11-10T07:36:00.002-07:00

students at Kent State marchd to town to protest the government

last nite students at Penn State marchd to town to protest the firing of a football coach

what can I say?

my body

2011-11-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

despises the time change. the older I get the longer it takes to adjust to this cruel joke.

last nite I was ready for bed at 9 but had to force myself to stay up till 11.

this morning I woke feeling unrestd. & there was some snow on the ground. so I'm grumpier than usual.